A CrossFit Confession
Mea culpa maxima. My apologies for the intermission between posts. I have reasons for this abeyance so allow me to explain.
One of my dearest friends in New York suddenly lost her sister. My own family has sustained enumerable medical exams. There have been squabbles in my own relationship about health. Caught in the middle and trying to stay above it all, I have been depressed. I mean like William Styron depressed. Per usual, I want no sympathy. Clinical depression is something I have worked with for decades and just until this past month, I had been moving along at a nice clip. Who knows what triggered this precipitious slip? That’s immaterial.

What I can tell you is that I have experience profound lethargy. I also felt that if I couldn’t deadlift a Herculean amount of weight, why bother showing up to CF. It was dark.
All I know is that this past month by expectations of where I should be at 35 were vastly incongruent with my reality. And, in this vain, I have elected to lower my antidepressants. I am a firm believer that food is a healing agent and these chemicals that have been in my body for a decade are nothing more than a band aid.
I reached out to Marcus at CrossFit Oahu about stopping meds (and HE IS NOT AN MD nor DOES HE CLAIM TO BE) and he wrote:
To be honest I think your Coaches are right. In my opinion antidepressants are more of a crutch than a remedy. Therapy, good sleep, lots of water, healthy eating and exercise are the things that will help you the most. I am not an MD though and would never tell you to stop taking medication that a doctor RX. Do you have the option to workout early in the morning? If so you could probably go to the early class and then take your meds after? Also, if you drink a fair amount of alcohol I would probably cut back (I just took 60 days off). This is going to help you mental state tremendously. A “detox” can work but only for a short period. Here is what I would do if I were you.
2 week detox
1. eat meat, nuts, seeds, veggies, eggs, some fruit only. Eliminate any sugar outside of fruit (including juice)… don’t eat any gluten
2. Go to CrossFit at least 3 days a week
3. Cut out the alcohol. If you drink then stop for two weeks.
4. only drink water…. eliminate caffeine, and sugary drinks. Non caffeinated tea is ok too
After you do this you should loosen your restrictions so you dont binge like crazy. This will also give your body time to lower your insulin tolerance and clean our the gluten in your system.
Tips:
1.Grocery shop every sunday and buy what you need. Prepare foods that can last you all week and cook them up that night (chili, chicken soup, stuff for a salad,ect…). Freeze some of it for later in the week.
2. throw away anything that is unhealthy
3. sleep in a cool, quiet, dark room for at least 9hrs a night. (if you toss and turn it might be time for a new mattress, pillow, ect…)
4. Try some other form of exercise (maybe yoga) once or twice a week.
5. buy something like all natural peanut butter and bananas to eat when you have serious cravings. That should help tame them.
I can say I am seeing the light on the other end ( move to the light, CaroleAnn) but never would I imagine that looking so deeply into yourself and working on life changes would demand both brawn and soul.









